A quick snapshot about me:
Since I was 8, I knew that I was not good enough.
I’ve always been categorised as not smart, too quiet, not bubbly, shy, introvert and even an anti social.
As a young child, my self worth was non existent.
I had no self belief or confidence that I could be ‘somebody’.
Fast forward to later in my life…
After graduating from BYCA, I felt that I was too dumb to create an online business for myself because I was never the smartest. P.S: I would be the worst to partner up for trivia.
Not only did I felt that I wasn’t smart enough, I couldn’t afford a swoon worthy website. I would DIY my site and it would turn out amateur. But nevertheless, somehow, I managed to still spend thousands of money on silly plugin, themes etc [go figure…].
I would stay up late and cry because either I couldn’t figure the tech out or my site would crash or was I being hacked. It was a fucking nightmare. My website looked shit and I wasn’t working on my life coaching business… I was working on non client attraction stuff and not creating content that is relevant to my business that would ultimately bring in clients. Most of all, I struggled with my own poor mindset , my own fear of visibility and got sick very often. I had poor health and had no self belief to “show up”.
But the one thing that frighten me the most, was that, I was going to receive hate mails, being trolled hard on social media, getting caught out as a fraude and judgements from randoms (worst still; family and friends)
NOW, I have learned to hold space.
I have learned that not everybody is going to resonate with me,
i work through my feeling when i’m being trolled on Instagram that that my message about self-love is rubbish.
I’ve learned that body and mind are connected when it comes to personal growth in love, health and wealth.
I’m no longer feel overwhelmed by tech anymore nor am I wasting money of bullshit stuff that supposedly will help grow my coaching business.
But most of all, I’ve made connections with like minded women despite being a major shy introvert myself. Creating my own kind of community and loving life.