When I first heard about introversion from Susan Cain, I finally felt understood. I was wondering why I felt drained from going to social events. I thought, maybe I was basically just an anti-social girl and being anti-social is basically a behavior that is undesirable. At a very young age, I already knew that my personality and WHO I AM was unloveable. Which of course became a problem for me as I become a young adult.
I'm married to a man who has like has millions of friends. At first, I thought "wow, I'm going to have heaps of friends too!" I was excited at the idea that I'm going to more party, dinners and attending to MORE social events. But I forgot... I'm socially awkward. I am a classic case of a wallflower.
A few reasons why it was important for me not to be this weirdo that my husband married:
Firstly, I wanted Greg to feel proud of me, and not have his friends judge me behind his back. Secondly, I want to show him I'm making every effort to be in the clique. Third, I wanted to be accepted. Um... no we're not in high school, at that time most of us were pushing 30 and some with kids.